So maddd..

What makes the world think it can judge each other,what makes one man more menacing than another??
Without even mentioning a word to each other they find something to hate? How? Why? Why should I put my eyes to the ground in defeat without even being spoken to?

We all have our own kind of armour now, we're all defensive, whether you like to admit it or not.
There's no need for introductions anymore, no one wants to know each other.
The trend has been set as hard as concrete, is there any use in trying to break it or will I just break myself on it instead?

"Times are always changing"! What? In which direction exactly are we moving on to now?

Personally, I find the world gross. I want to change it but I'm impatient with it and hypocritically prejudice. Yes, i hate it too.
STOP BEING SELFISH AND THEN I MIGHT STOP, TOO!

In fact, I am going to stop. Don't wait for the world to stop announcing rapes to stop raping others yourself, you dutty people. Eugh. Why man?

I should be in bed..

The typing starts now and will probably include lots of I's... talking about myself.. but lets be fair, It's probably the easiest thing to talk about seeing as.. I am ..in fact, me.. always with myself.. I can never get away from myself. It has it's ups, I personally find my own jokes HILLARIOUS. It also has its downs, at the same time as being amusing to oneself I find myself annoying.. especially those stupid mood swings, golly.

Golly..

what does that even mean?
I shouldn't really use words I don't know the understanding of.

Can I just say something ...(I don't know why I'm asking, because I'm going to say it anyway) that could put people in all sorts of moods.
I had SUCH a lush Sunday! Neil genuinely likes me for me... he even likes my thighs, NOW THAT'S SAYING SOMETHING (I have quite large thighs which makes me quite self conscious.. I hate it). He doesn't just want me there for all the kissy; touchy; mcfluffy jazzle which I find .. difficult to like, sometimes, from past experiences.. he said he likes my sense of humour; personality..all of me! AHA! SCORE! I'm irresistable in ways that don't need to become "sexual", oooo, i said the word SEX :D
Not that he'll ever read this but, THANK YOUUU. For being so friendly as well as loving.

I've also come across a huge loss.
I don't ever see a person; a person that brings me jokes; smiles; understanding and just sheer.. stupidity.. I feel this loss more than ever, even though it's been a while friend. HELEN LESWELL YOU MORONIC COW, PLEASEEEE.. COME TO ME.

Anyway....... I NEED SCHLEEEP.

I solomnly swear to make more sense the following post, Mmkay? ^_^

I want to be inspired

I'm like a learner, trying to drive, be patient with me. I'm new.

I am blessed, there's no doubt about it.
I've been brought up with a family who seems to love me and we're not exactly poor.
I have the ability to do near enough anything, especially through the power of God, but do I? No, not really. I suppose the fact that I'm ill at the moment doesn't really help my feeling of being useless.

I've had my fair share of bad relationships, whether that be of the "romantic" type or just "friendships", all teaching me to be "strong" and look after myself and not trust so easily. That then causing me to "lock" myself up, which then leads on to learning all over again to let God have my problems and not deal with things all on my own. I get quite exhausted, emotionally.
I didn't think I'd ever trust any one ever again after my last "boyfriend", if that's what you call an animal like that. And yet again, I've been blessed again with Neil, someone who cares and is gentle with me. I feel bad for sometimes feeling like I can't trust him, when sure I enough i know I can, but when you get walked on by an elephant, you don't exactly want to go back and have that again, right?

Man, this isn't going to make much sense if you don't know me, but I am trying!
In my birthday card from my Grandma she put the passage: Ps 91. Verse 9-12 stuck out the most, probably because of a selfish bone, but here it is: " If you say 'The Lord is my refuge', & you make the Most High your dwelling, no harm will overtake you, no disaster will come near your tent. For he will command his angels concerning you to guard you ina ll your ways; they will lift you up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone."

So, this is basically saying, throughout everything, i have power with God, he is continuous. There's no point in this passage where it implies that God is limited, and will only give his attention when you burn something, kill something, shout and wear a hat. No, this is all the time, am i stupid to forget such an awesome promise? I think so.
Don't get me wrong, the war is still on, but the battle has been Won. The devil exists and will try to get at you, but lets face it.. God can be everywhere at once, hear everything/everyone, he's huge, that's pretty cool. The devil can't do that.. the devil is in fact, limited, wayo!

Bad weather will happen, but that doesn't mean the sun won't come out!
And stumping your foot on a rock probably will happen too, but it'll get better ;)