I don’t even know where to begin.
‘Eugh’ seems like the best way to explain how I feel.
…or at least that seems to be what I’ve been saying a lot.
Little things. Big things. Future plans. Past memories. It all seems to be suffocating me.
So why aren’t I turning to God. I pray. I’ve asked others to pray. Why am I reacting so badly this time? I feel all hot & bothered…I feel like crying a lot… & worse.
I also want to marry Neil. NOW. I’m currently waiting to grow up.
The family of God, we’re supposed to be a family of affirmation. I get that. My brother sometimes doesn’t seem to remember that the rest of us have feelings. Or, maybe he’s just being an adolescent.
I missed glee, 4OD doesn’t upload until Friday, and so I have to wait for that long. Oh man. I want to talk to Sophie about glee! Apparently it was rubbish. GAY?
I’ll have to wait.
Kind of like how I’m waiting for everything else.
Oh man. I really do love my family though; they’ve been so good to me. My mummy and daddy love me. I’m glad about that. I hope I can reflect their love out to others…
Like Jesus did.
Jesus was & is a good example.
…although that can sometimes be difficult, because then you end up comparing yourself to him…therefore causing a feeling of inferiority?
Oh Jesus, I do love you! I’m sorry!
HELP me to settle my heart.
Also, if there are any readers out there, I hope I didn’t make you want to kill yourself. As Jake Hamilton sings nowadays, ‘it’s all gonna be okay’!
I Promise, as Martin smith & Bob Marley say, “Every little thing is gonna be alright.”
Ciou
