Moo!

I can be a massive; in the way; annoying; cow – but it only comes out on people I REALLY love; the people I trust.

I will snap – I will hit – I will run away.

…but I would not want to live without them; ever. If they said they did not love me – I would probably either pretend to be fine – walk away – cry on my own.
…or possibly just snap in their faces – pure melt down.

The person I am worst to – him; the one. He is bubbly. He is caring. He is horrendous. He is beautiful. He is funny. He is idiotic. He is incredible. He is messy.

but...
He is mine.

& I am horrible.

):

The stupid part: I do not even know why!

Some day’s are so incredibly romantic – and would probably make other people gag if they witnessed it. Some days we just lie down for hours – and it is bliss.

Other days – because of me – we have off days.

This is when every 10 minutes – as he has said – I will get annoyed at something he has done.

I hope he does not have too many bruises ):

THIS ALWAYS HAPPENS.

During: I am angry and give him the silent treatment.

near the end: of our time together & afterwards – I end up feeling SO crap because;

he does not deserve it.

Just seeing him drive away smiling at me, his smile shows how he feels –

and that smile says: I love you, Anna Davies, just how you are.

How could I... possibly (said like DrWho) snap at that? STUPID; STUPID ANNA!

Yeah he is messy & gross & sometimes ignorant – so what?

I am moody; tidy; boring & too insightful.


Therefore, I publicly declare,

I LOVE YOU NEIL ANDREW JAMES

& I am sorry for the past and future fall outs, I need to think before i say things; and now know that my relationship with you is more important than those things i get upset about.

but please remember, because i will do it again: it is only because I love you so much! that i would have the guts to get upset or angry! ):


Yours truly, Anna.

I don't recommend dwelling on the past.

Appreciate the present

& look forward to the future.

Live.

But, then again, how do you define 'Living'?

Neil says,
'If we lived all the fun all the time - we haven't lived. To be human we need to experience every emotion meaning when we have something amazing we enjoy it and it's precious. i have enjoyed, am enjoying and will enjoy you. Through the good and the bad'

I don't know.

But too much dwelling on past, present and future can be hard going.

Just live. My challenge: Don't waste what others would love.

Don't let insecurity hold you down.

Amen.

p.s : 'Hide and seek' by Imogen Heap is my favourite song at this precise second! (:

Remember; Remember.

I always think about the future, what about the past?

What about all those smiles;
all that laughter experienced?
What about all those bubbly butterflies
all locked in my belly?
What about when I first felt my heart beat faster,
just because of him?

Only problem:

Remembering all the sorrow that tags itself to it.

Overall.

Smile. just because you can.
You never know who you're inspiring...

(: