Nervous

I am not sure there really is a word for what this feeling is:

Beginning with words like..

Nervous
Scared
Anxious
Confused..

but then that does not seem to cover the actual feeling.

Is it a struggle?
or a state.. a season.. or an unsettlement..

It does not feel good.

Which is why it needs confronting..

but how can I confront it if I cannot put words to it?
WHAT IS THIS FEELING?

Is it the unknown?
Is it dissatisfaction? 

The only thing I know to do is turn to what is true now. 

I am living.
I have necessities to live.

I have everything I need.

Is it selfishness then?
Or am I missing the point... 

Turn it back to you;
teach me to remember, God.

I want to love and treat you right.